Lyrics to Akiyama-san Alones Video

The song is titled Alones by Aqua Timez

English Lyrics

Your folded pale wings
are just a little tired from the overly blue sky
You don’t have to force your smile for anyone else
It’s alright to smile only for yourself

Loneliness continues to creep up on me,
a candle alight on the inside
Such a gorgeous chandelier
shouldn’t be at a crowded party, like this one
Why should I bury it all
in the emptiness of words that are lacking?
I don’t know anymore

As long as we can swim freely in our dreams,
we don’t need the sky anymore
Even if I can’t paint over everything
that happened up until yesterday,
I’ll still come out to meet you tomorrow

Your folded pale wings
are just a little tired from the overly blue sky
You don’t have to force your smile for anyone else
It’s alright to smile only for yourself

Inferiority complexes and reconciliations
aren’t things that will come true so easily
The mirror that remains
at the top of self-consciousness reflects flower petals
It looks like my voice is strained
from trying to cry out with an impure love
It’s irritating

In these changing times,
wounds will soon turn into scabs
Without waiting for that to happens,
you’re so beautiful, and so fleeting…

Prayers shiver in the sun,
like traces of down that have come loose
It’s alright to not think about loving someone
as being too much for you right now

Sometimes this world is a little bit too dazzling
to walk looking upward in
When you cast your eyes down,
as though sinking, the dry ground slurps up your tears

Why do we feel so alone anytime?
You don’t have to take on everything
Why do we feel so alone anytime?
Just putting up with it isn’t courage


Japanese Lyrics


oreta awai tsubasa
kimi wa sukoshi
aosugiru sora ni tsukareta dake sa
mou dareka no tame ja nakute
jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo

izen to shite shinobiyoru kodoku
uchigawa ni tomoru rousoku
nigiwau ba ni gouka na shanderia to wa urahara ni

tarinai kotoba no
kubomi o nani de umetara ii n' darou
mou wakaranai yo

semete yume no naka de
jiyuu ni oyogetara anna sora mo iranai no ni
kinou made no koto o
nuritsubusa nakute mo asu ni mukaeru no ni

oreta awai tsubasa
kimi wa sukoshi
aosugiru sora ni tsukareta dake sa
mou dareka no tame ja nakute
jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo

rettoukan to no wakai wa
kantan ni wa kanawanaisa
Jiishiki no teppen ni suwaru
kagami ga utsusu hanabira

furishiboru you ni
kogoreta ai wo sakende miru keredo
modokashikute

meguru toki no naka de
kizuguchi wa yagate
kasabuta ni kowatte iku
kimi wa sore o matasu
totemo utsukushiku
totemo hakanage de

hagare ochita ato no
ubuge no you ni
hi damari no naka de furueru inori
ima wa muri ni dareka no koto wo
ai sou to omowanakute ii no ni

[instrumental]

toki ni kono sekai wa
ue wo muite
aruku ni wa sukoshi mabushii sugiru ne
shizumu you ni
me wo fuseru to
kawaita chimen ga namida wo susuru

(Why do we feel so alone any time?)
Subete wo uketomenakute no ii yo
(Why do we feel so alone any time?)
koraeru koto dakedo
Yuuki ja nai.

Feelings

Right now I am still sort of bummed out that I didn't get to go to the Chibipa Festival this year. And this year was more than likely the only time that a Sasuke All-Star would be there. I am not going into the situation but once I heard the entire thing, I found myself disgusted that sort of thing (again not going into details) was done to make sure that Nagano-san would come. I hope that the entire American population isn't placed into that catergory.

The cool thing is that one of the girls from the board I visit, won a lunch with him and posted some pictures and videos, sharing her experiance with us. That was really nice and sweet of her to do so.

In a way, even though I was down in bed this week, I was feeling better today. Which meant if I had the money, I could have went. They did allow entrance at the door for a higher price. It's sad when you live less than 3 hours away and can't go to see this person.

I had the money to go and had it saved up. Now that the Festival is ending tomorrow, I can finally say what happened.

For two months ( since moving into the new place and finding out that Nagano-san was possibly coming) I stopped splurging on things. I haven't splurged in a while and cut back even more with stuff I thought I needed ( Even things I did need) to be able to go to the festival. In two months, I had saved up over eighty dollars to cover gas, food, and myself as well as a guest entrance into the Festival. I made sure that money remained in the account to go with.

However, on the eighteenth, basically a little over a week from the Festival, Hubby comes home with two movies for a PSP. Ok, not strange, except for the fact, we don't have one anymore. The only person I know who has one is his seven or eight year old nephew Jordan. We got it for him.

Now the deal with the movies was that Jordan's mom, who is seperated from Jordan's dad, told Jordan to ask his uncle Patrick. Reason being, Patrick can't say no when it comes to his nephews.

The mom, and her current boyfriend work. However, the mom is mad because when Jordan stated the boyfriends kids would take his PSP away from him and not let him play it, The mother in law told Jordan to leave it at her house so he could play it there and it wouldn't get torn up. Boyfriends kids are like over the age of ten.

So Jordan proceed to ask for these movies and his mom said, Ask your uncle Patrick, which Jordan did. She refused to buy them for him.

So on this night, Hubby comes home and says he spent some of my trip money to get them because Jordan wanted them. I asked how much and he said 30 dollars.( He had removed the price tags from the movies) I believed him. Alright, that still gave me 50 to work with. I could swing that. I could take snacks from the house and what not.

Then on Sunday the 21st he reminds me the car needs cleaning out. So out I go to clean it, keeping what needs to be kept and throwing away what didn't need to be.

Towards the end, I come across a reciept from Rhino Games, which is where he got the movies, dated for the 18th.

Not only did he lie to me, he had spent my entire 80 dollars on more than just those movies for Jordan. After checking in the car, I found the packaging for the rest of the stuff. When I asked him about it, he said that Jordan needed this stuff and he had asked for it.

So due to this mother who didn't want to shell out money for her son, not that she ever does anyways, I didn't get to go on a once of a lifetime trip. All hubby had to say was...

"Maybe he will come back next year."

Ummm no. I very seriously doubt that. Due to circumstances surrounding this gathering ( again not my place to give out details) He won't be back next year. Unless TBS Japan and Monster 9 decides to do a tour for the show to promote it, none of the All-Stars will be here. Besides, unlike the celebrities over here in the US, these men have everyday jobs and families. They can't just drop everything to do a tour of the US. And I doubt that TBS or Monster 9 would shell out that much money to promote the show. I do know or think the Muscle Muscial is in Las Vegas but that doesn't garentee anything.

So thanks to a coniving woman, I didn't get to go. Oh she knew I was going to go and had money saved up to do so. My mother in law and sister in law talked with me about me going because I was going to take either one of them two with me as my co-pilot. Mother in Law mentioned it to her before.

The mother can shell out money to drink and party every weekend but she can't spend 30 bucks on her son. I can't be mad at Jordan because he only did what he was told. However, I can be mad at the mother for telling him and upset at my husband for spending all my trip money. I knew I should have prebooked but I didn't have my credit card then. Maybe If I had gotten a prepaid one and booked that way, he wouldn't have had a choice because it was no refundable. *sighs* Only in my life. It seems like when I plan for something I really want to do, Something like this always happens. That's why I haven't been able to go see my daughter in Tennesee, the money always gets spent.

Maybe once I get a job I can save up my money and take my sister in spirit to Japan for a week. Surely it can't be that expensive..I mean yeah I know it can be but it would be worth it just to spend time with her and learn something new. I do know one thing though, if we get our stimulas check back from the IRS like we are supposed to, (It's mean of me to do) but my part of the money is going to be put into a new checking account in my name. I'm tired of not being able to get clothes and stuff just because the nephews parents refuse to get things for them. It's not our place to provide everything for them, right?

My Car

As I Promised, Pictures of My Car. We Did the side graphics in a day and the rest the next day. People say it looks professional and constantly stop us on the street to ask where we got it done. It's one of a kind, compleately a Panther/Lion (yep that's hubby's nick name) original. The only thing that was professionally done is the Saturn SL2 in Old English writing on the back window.

Side shot of the Ghost Dragons and Razor Graphics


I designed it this way because of the greyness of the dragons. Even though it shows up well in this picture, when your beside the car, you actually see the razor graphics first and as you follow it down, it flows into the dragon. I have had many professoinals saying WOW about how it is brought together.



Close up of the Ghost Dragon. Not much to say here except I took it in an overcast so that it could be shown clearly. When the sun hits it, the dragons almost vanish.
The Ying Yang Dragons. There is one on each side of the hood. Patrick says this is the perfect picture of me and him. We balance out each other.

One of my favorite parts. The Etched Dragon decals. People think they are etched into the glass and unless you are right on top of them as I am here, you don't see the cling line that is shown.




We originally were going to do Panthers but we couldn't find any Panther graphics where we went. This was a weekend project for me and him due to us not having many weekend projects together and I was fussing about the white car. I hate driving white in Florida because when the sun is out full force, the color white isn't seen.

However, Now that the car is paid in full and we have the title. GO US!!!!! Once I get a job I am having the front bumper redone (It's cracked from the previous owner) which means a body kit. I am going to have it raised up because you have to sit down to get into my vehicle.. Hey, Nagano-san and Akiyama-san would have no issues getting in.

Then comes the repainting. I will get it done professionally because for the life of me I would never be able to paint a car. The body kit, again professional, but the graphics are going to be simple.

Instead of dishing out over five grand for graphics, my brother took over the family business when our Daddy died last year. Our dad had just purchased a vynal cutter before he died due to the Float Company Signs he had to make. So my little brother told me to get what I wanted and email it to him, he would program it in and cut them out for me.

However, I have an issue.. I wanted to put Sasuke on my car..you know that cool icon they have at the first of the tourmaents. However, I am worried I will get in trouble for that. Not only is it the name of the show, it is also the name of another anime character and the name of a samari
(Thanks Elsie for that input) but I do know the inside of the car is going to be Blue Flaming Skulls. I have already decided..Either that or Dragons. Instead of getting it reupholstered, I am going to use seat covers.

Any ideas on a color for the car if I use the Sasuke logo?

Still New Place

My tub, (Upgrade from small tub you couldn't stretch out in) Hubby uses the shower..Well mostly.. I'm in heaven.
Master Bathroom but cleaning those mirrors are torture.
Our king sized bed..we upgraded from a full to a king...big diffrence..we never touch now unless we are cuddling.
This is also the Master Bedroom.

Why am I taking pictures of the cabinets?
Because they hide my laundry room...Ahhh finally a washer and dryer. No more dirty clothes or laundry mat for me.... The island on the right side of the picture, belongs in the kitchen but we hadn't put it there yet. It has a built on cutting board made out of wood and granet that my husband absolutely loves.
The kitchen before the table and the island was placed back in. My bigggg stove..I love it, I don't have to bend over to cook.
The living room before we moved the TV into the Master Bedroom and before the couch and loveseat with glass coffee table. I hate cleaning that thing also.
The Second Bedroom..aka..The computer room. Before it was packed full of stuff, but we still have a router in there.
Second/Guest Bathroom. No we didn't paint those walls that ugly yellow color. But currently we have repainted the bathroom back white.
Guest Bedroom aka Storage Room before it was packed full of boxes, lol.. ( Am I noticing a pattern here?) Yes, you see the same ugly yellow from the bathroom and in the pictures it looks alright but in real time, it is a pee yellow color. Better believe that's getting painted white also, like the place orginally came with.

My back yard...OMG I HAVE A BACK YARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S HUGEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! That's not even half of it. This was taken from the back door. See the opening in the trees behind the white thing? That's our creek..I am in love. It may not be the same as Tennessee where you hear it running over the rocks but it's calming.

Our front screened in Duel Porch. Yep, two porches in one. Gotta remember to watch how your walking at night or you'll break your ankle stepping down.

The whole kit and kaboodle. See I even have a front yard also. Even though all I see is a hump, it's still a front yard.


Specs...Three bedroom..two full bath. Huge back yard. This Panther is pleased..


I'll post my Saturn later. Just spent an hour on this blog and am getting tired. Still not feeling well at all.

The Saturn we did in two weekends by ourselves and it is one of a kind. Too bad it's fixing to get trashed to get repainted soon and the body work done on it.

My hair

I had to do this.

When I was living with a foster family before my grandmother (Mom) got custody back of me. The woman kept my hair cut realllllyyyy short. We are talking that when I wore pants, people thought I was a boy, short.

From seven and a half on, I started growing my hair. By the time I was in seventh grade and doing Show Jumping ( for those not horse illertate, that means jumping horses) my hair was down to my back.

My younger cousin Amanda was playing with a lighter and struck it too close to my hair, burned a path up the center, which meant, I had to get it cut off again and restart.

In 2000 my hair was down to mid back, even with the dying I was doing to it. Then my brother's girlfriend ( I lived with them at the time) got lice and transfured it onto me. By the time we figured it out, my hair couldn't be saved, even with the shampoo. Again, had to whack it off.

Then I got married to Patrick.

My hair refused to grow too much until August of last year. Got it trimmed and at this time, it was barely past my shoulders. His cousin Stacy trimmed it up and we came back to Florida. From August till March of this year when his mom passed away suddenly, my hair grew some. In seven months it was mid back. Yeah, my hair was coming back.

In March I had Stacy to trim it again and now, it is down to the middle of the back pockets on a pair of jeans. I have to keep it braided at all times and I only unbraid it to wash it. (Takes three full days to fully dry because I am guessing it is so thick and I refuse to use a hairdryer.) The picture following was taken a few months ago and you can see how fast it grew since then.

Wow. I was fluffy... I have lost 20 pounds since we moved in. Next post will show our place before we put our stuff in it. In the almost five years we have been married, and since I left my grandmother's back in 1996 I have lived in some run down aweful places. When I got married to Patrick, we live in a three room ( yep only three room) small apartment. This is an upgrade from my life.

The belt I am wearing there, I made by myself.

The Japanese/ Chinese Zodiac Hates Me

I have an underlying fear of snakes and spiders. Alright, I down RIGHT refuse to be in the same room or area as them. Which is bad considering I live in Florida but back to the Zodiac.

THE SNAKE

Snakes are romantic and charming. They are deep thinkers and always mysterious. Snakes are graceful and soft spoken. They love a good book and appreciate all of the arts. They lean towards all of the finer things in life. Snakes trust themselves above all others and are seldom wrong; but behind a sophisticated front,Snakes are very superstitious!

Snakes are good with money and don't have to worry about finances. Somehow, when money is needed, it appears. In spite of their good luck with money, Snakes should never gamble. They could suffer big losses if they did, but Snakes learn fast. Once they have made a mistake,they never repeat it. They also never forgive you if you break a promise. By nature they are skeptical beings but keep their suspicions to themselves. They are very private and not concerned with the business of others. Idle gossip is not for them.

Snakes can be possessive in their relationships with others.They are passionate but jealous lovers. You can never tell how far Snakes will go to achieve their aims. They are relentless and their computer-like brains never stop plotting.When you anger them, you feel their icy hostility instead of hearing any sharp words. They will bide their time for revenge, so watch out! Snakes are elegant dressers, well-mannered, and always discrete. They always appear quiet and docile, but watch out, they never betray their true feelings. Their moves are planned out well in advance and they will hold their position to the bitter end. They can be evasive, and just when you think you have them, they slip away.

Snakes make good politicians since they can negotiate just about anything. Snakes also have a great sense of humor, and even in a crisis situation, they can lighten the atmosphere. They never lose their spark even when weighed down by trouble themselves. Being pillars of strength,they always maintain their presence of mind during confusion or crisis.

Snakes have beautiful skin. They possess a cool and classic air about them. They love expensive things,too. Snakes save for the real thing rather than buy an imitation. Snakes admire power and surround themselves with successful people. Their many talents and natural abilities make them sought-after as leaders. People admire and support Snakes even if they don't understand them.

Whatever happens, Snakes always strike out for themselves. They know how to use people and situations to their advantage. They are destined for fame and fortune.

And it gets even better

Diplomatic and popular, the Snake has the sensual art of seduction down. This Sign is an interesting mix of gregariousness paired with introversion, intuitive reasoning paired with savvy business skills. Snakes are considered to be lucky with money and will generally have more than enough to live life to the fullest, regardless of how important it considers money to be; this may be due to the fact that Snakes tend to be rather tight with cash. They're not stingy, they're simply more mentally than physically active. Snakes tend to hang back a bit in order to analyze a situation before jumping into it. Their charming, seductive quality actually belies a rather retiring nature; this Sign is perfectly happy to spend the whole day curled up with a good book and, thus, can be mislabeled as being lazy.

The Snake is somewhat insecure deep down and tend to be a rather jealous, possessive lover, behavior that can end up alienating loved ones. Despite these less-than-stellar tendencies, however, the Snake often proves irresistible and is a generous, loving partner. Slightly dangerous and disarmingly smart, the Snake's philosophical and intuitive mind generally supersedes logic in favor of feelings and instinct. Snakes will rely on their own gut reactions and intuitions before turning to others for suggestions. This makes this Sign a great hand in any business venture, possessing the caution and smarts needed to get ahead.

Snakes are hard workers (when they see good reason to be!) and are possessed of a keen intelligence. Snakes have incredible follow-through, once they get going, and they expect the same from others. Thus, their coworkers and employees had best stay on their toes, lest they anger the Snake and suffer its poisonous bite!

In general, of course, Snakes are generous and genteel, charming and appealing. Snakes must try to learn humility and to develop a stronger sense of self. Once Snakes realize that confidence comes from within, they will finally be comfortable in their own skin.

Those of you born under the influence of the Chinese Element Fire burn through life with your fierce charm, your impulsive enthusiasm and your restless emotions. A natural leader, you inspire with your decisive action and dramatic expression; people can't help but be magnetically drawn to you. Where will you lead your followers? Likely into an exciting adventure of some sort. You're instinctual, but your mind sparks with new ideas and clever solutions. In love, you're highly-charged -- even combustible at times! Hot tamales to the core, these dynamic individuals can see straight to the heart of an issue and make it work for them. You may seem single-minded, but you just refuse to be swayed from a cause they believe to be important.

So not only am I a snake I'm a Fire Snake to boot. I'm telling you these Zodiacs hates me...They mock me at every turn.

First Blog

I promised I would do this so here we go...

First Picture is Akiyama-san, The Lizard



Second picture is my Hubby Patrick and Our Nephew Jake..I call him Jake Jake
Next is our niece Alinda Sue. To me Little Bit
And last but not least
ME
Panther, Wolfie..aka whatever I am called.

Yeah I know, scary....

I love Sasuke (not the anime character, the show) Horses, Panthers ( just read the name) and about every other animal but I have a fear of snakes and spiders.

There was another animal, Yamada-san but he escaped before I could get his picture. He was a Snapping Turtle I saved from getting smushed in our road but when I named him Yamada-san, he hissed at me. Guess I insulted him.

Will think of more to blog on later. Have pictures of our place we moved into before we moved everything in. Might post them next time.

Am off to wait news from two online friends who won the contest to have lunch with Makoto Nagano..Wow, they were lucky huh?